What I am learning through my feelings exercise is that these feelings are not mine. I do not own them. They are life coming through me.
They are reactions inside me to surroundings, to experiences.
anger – fast breathing, tense, heat in my muscles
sad – shallow breath, heavy body – heavy heart, heavy eye lids, heavy feet, heavy arms
shame – a deep pit in my stomach, sensitive skin, vigilant
These are some of the feelings I was able to explore with this exercise. And I am discovering more in each moment.
I am learning to go deeper.
I am now very aware that everything I think comes from the sensations in my body.
For example, my dog barks at me demandingly – I feel my body tense and fists clench and then I think – “She is a bad dog”. I feel angry.
In the past – I would say to myself – there is no need to feel this – she is just a silly dog. Now, I let myself feel it – which does not mean I need to react to it. Only to notice and let it pass – as opposed to shooing it away.
Now I know angry and I can feel it as it moves through my body and work with my dog from a place of peace.
These feelings are not bad or good. They are a wide array of sensations in our body.
These sensations are not something to fight against. It would be like trying to fight the earth because of a cloudy day. Now when I am in my head to much – when working with my thoughts isn’t working – this is a sign to feel.
This is a new tool for me – and can be for you too.
To explore my body – my heart, my muscles, my lungs, my skin. What are they saying to me?
And I know, it will pass – without the world crumbling. Just like the sun comes out after the rain.
After all – with no rain – how would we know to enjoy the sun?
Let life live through you. FEEL.