I think I’ve mentioned this before. I’m a pretty functional adult.
But before two years ago, that was it. I was functional. I woke up. I did what I thought was expected of me. I was in band, track, basketball, I got solid grades. I went to college. Twice. I got a job. And then about 5 more.
Others were proud.
But until this last month, I never really knew what proud felt like. For me.
I was always looking out. Seeing. Hearing. About how good I did. About how what I had accomplished was amazing.
I was always smiling and nodding.
But on the inside I was lost.
I was lost because it didn’t matter how many times someone else told me they were proud of me.
I was never proud of me.
Not because I didn’t think I deserved it. But because I had no sense of who I was. How could I be proud of someone I didn’t know?
I had been a robot for most of my life. Going through the motions. Doing what I thought was “right” or “good” or this is the best one, “practical”. Looking outward for the answers.
Life coaching changed my trajectory. I started to look in.
I saw the good, the bad and the ugly. All my thoughts.
Noticing. Feeling. Taking responsibility.
I learned to love all of it.
I learned to start making choices for me.
To not ask anyone anything until I asked me.
It has not been easy. It has taken hard work. And dedication. To my self.
But now I know. I know. Knowing me, all of me, is a requirement of living a fulfilled life. The kind of life where I will find the courage to teach others that they can learn to value themselves too, first.
A few weeks ago, I got the thumbs up from one of the most awesome teachers I know, Brooke Castillo.
I have become a Certified Life Coach through her amazing school.
The day I got that email.
For the first time.
I was PROUD.
For me. For real.
Every person I ever wanted to please could have been standing in the room with me and I wouldn’t have noticed any of them. That day. I noticed me.
The me that chose to do something not because it was good, right or practical, but because it was something my heart knew it wanted. And I listened.
I can’t wait for more of it. For more of getting to know me. For more of listening to me. And I’m ready to share what I have learned. To teach you. To guide you to notice and to listen…
From May into June, I am teaching a 4 session class in my local community about getting to know your self. If you live in the area, I would be grateful to have you join me.
I have been so full of love thinking about teaching this class I made a video with some of my favorite photos, check it out… Are you ready to be YOU?