Holy Mary, mother and Joseph. Where does this feeling of guilt come from?
It is SUCH a whopper of dirty pain. Yuck.
For me, guilt is triggered when I think I don’t deserve something easily. (Kindof like I am getting away with something.)
Here’s how it works in my mind.
The universe hands me gifts that I have the option to nuture (painting skills, coaching skills, a kind heart, a passion for teaching).
My thought: If it comes easily to me it must be wrong or bad.
So I feel guilty about my gifts.
I create drama with blame and stories instead of embracing my gift.
I never nuture my gifts, in fact I may even shun them, because it feels like a “crime” to have them.
Hello, circle of shame. Sheesh.
What I also noticed about guilt, is that it is the first feeling I choose before I go down the road of struggle – that winds through insecurity, inadequacy, and helplessness.
It’s the seed feeling for a long journey of self-abusive thoughts and feelings and pretty crappy results in my life.
As I was processing all this information, I was wondering what the exact of opposite feeling of guilt was.
A new feeling that I could choose.
Of course. The feeling is…
The courage to truly love my gifts.
To love my gifts as much as I love taking a breath. Like they are a part of me.
The courage to look guilt in the eye and tell it to buzz off.
Because choosing to believe I am wrong or bad and feel guilt. It keeps me small.
Choosing courage. Opens my mind to possibility.
Choosing courage. Allows me to see my gifts – nuture them and share them.
Choosing courage. Allows me to sit with my whole self with true freedom, fearlessly.
And accept my gifts from the universe.
Like I never knew any different – I am now choosing to believe – if it comes easily it must be so right.
Yep, that definitely feels courageous.
Can you step into courage and embrace your gifts from the universe?